bad week

Monday night all of the sudden I felt like my world was crashing down. Now there was no reason for these feelings. I hate when I get like this. I really don't know why all of the sudden the feelings came because things are really good for us. We are in a good place. The economy is terrible, but we are in a really good place. Spencer is still installing at least three new Internet accounts a week. And at this point even if that stopped he has expanded his duties at work and so he would still have his job. Depression is such a frustrating thing to fight. I keep thinking that I have the upper hand and then I have a day like Monday and I just wonder if I will ever have the upper hand.